Mother

Being a mom is one of the hardest things I have ever done. Carrying a baby for nine months, giving birth, and then giving a life to a little being. It’s such a surreal experience. It can be overwhelming as a new first time mom I know that sure. It’s always important to take care of ourselves.. that way we can care for our child or children even better. When i was looking into resources online I found an AWESOME work book that I printed off. It is pretty lengthy about 100 or so pages so if you cannot print at home TRY the library or try to fill it out online if possible.. I will post the link below. It focuses on your mental health, things such as health and self esteem. It is really useful and i found it to be an awesome tool for me to help me with my journey. It brings focus and realization to your life. I hope you enjoy it and even if you aren’t a mother it could be useful for you as well as it is mostly focusing on yourself and how to make yourself the best you can be!!

The Link is below: http://www.iwk.nshealth.ca/themes/iwkhc/downloads/mmh-toolkit.pdf

I hope that links works well for you and you take the time for yourself ❤

Love yours,

Michelle Xox.

Fuel your body. 

I was in a constant struggle of hating my body. I was so critical of my looks. When I was teenager I hated my looks. I was constantly put down and I started to believe I was fat and ugly. Over the years my body has changed. I’ve put on my weight and I wish I loved my body back then because my body was beautiful but it still is now. It may be different and it may not look like something on a magazine but it doesn’t need to. My body has done so many things. My body has kept me alive and breathing. My body creating another life. A heart beat, a breathe, a smile. My body has done amazing things. 

I think the only way to start loving your body is to first eat better. Fuel your body with things you would feed your young child. If a baby can’t have McDonald’s or other fast food it probably isn’t healthy for us either. Fueling your body and eating healthy is so important. I have been eating better for the past two weeks and I can already feel a difference. I still treat myself and I can tell the difference when I eat shit. Always try to fuel your body with healthy foods that will give you energy! 

Another way to get to loving your body is looking at your flaws and seeing how they affect you. Do your flaws hurt you physically or are is it just a mental issue? In this I will first talk about all my flaws or things I ‘dislike’ about my body. I will then look at these flaws in a different light and look at how the flaw or body part helps me live. Try this as well 💜 

My flaws are not flaws they are beautiful: 

  1. One of my biggest flaws in my opinion are my thighs. I hate the size of them. My weight always go there. They are covered in stretch marks and I’m so self conscious about them. I’ve realized though I’m so lucky to have thighs. Some people don’t even have legs! I’m lucky to have my thighs as they are strong and hold up my body. Even though they may have cellulite or stretch marks those are from growing and learning through life. They are still beautiful. Each one could have its own story 💓 
  2. I have always hated my nose. I’ve been called a witch nose or Pinocchio. I’ve realized though that my family has big noses. I got my nose from my grandpa who has passed away. If I change my nose I change something that my family is known for. That wouldn’t be nice. My nose is mine and it helps me smell wonderful scents. 
  3. A recent flaw of mine is my stomach. I use to have a wonderful flat tummy I don’t even know how cause I never worked out to get it. Now after the birth of Alison I have a little chub chub. It’s hard to hide sometimes and it’s so uncomfortable to me. But I akways got to remember I can always change and workout. My belly is mine because my beautiful daughter grew in there. That’s pretty amazing and I will always treasure that. Ali was worth every stretch mark!! 

    I don’t want to go on about all my flaws because that isn’t the point. The point is what we hate about ourselves someone else could love about us. Something we hate about ourselves someone might not even have or even have use of. We should always be thankful for ourselves and our bodies. It is what fuels us and it is ours. We are unique and beautiful. Every wrinkle, scar, or stretch marks shapes who we are. 💛

    17 things I’ve learnt in 17 years

    This is amazing.

    THOUGHTFULTASH

    Today, the 22nd of October 2016, I have turned 17 years old! 17 is quite a strange number to me- I’m not really considered a ‘child’ anymore, but I’m not really into full ‘adult mode’ yet. It feels so strange and does make you realise how fast life goes by. Despite the fact some may think I’m “only 17” and have the whole of my life ahead of me, 17 years is a long time. Over the course of these 17 years, I have learnt a hell of a lot of things, I have experienced some amazing memories, as well as times where I never imagined I could feel certain ways. But these experiences have shaped me into the person I am today, a person that I am proud to be- so here are the things I’ve learnt.

    (1) The hard work does really pay off.

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    you are never alone,

    I think we get to use to a routine and our feelings that we become afraid of change. We look into others to find ourself and often rely on others for sympathy or help. That is so damaging. I use to always do this. Stuck in a endless routine of going through the motions, waiting for someone to say oh poor you Michelle, but I then realized I can’t keep doing that. I can’t be stuck in my old ways of highschool days thinking I’m not good enough. I couldn’t live like that anymore. Thinking of someone else constantly and not putting MYSELF first was so damaging. I needed to put myself first. Even above my daughter because I needed to get to where I am now and where I will be tomorrow. I needed to get over shit. Lots of shit and deal with shit instead of hiding behind doubt and fear. I will always hold onto what my grandma told me when I told her that Tyler (my love) asked me out. I said to her: “GRANDMA I’m no longer ‘single'”. She then said “No you’ll always be single.” And at seventeen I didn’t really know what she meant of course then I was like poor me why isn’t she happy I’m finally taken and not single anymore. Then it was like a lightbulb. I realized that we are always single. Even married people should always put yourself first so everything else will come as second nature. Knowing that you are your own person and not to rely on someone else for that is SO important. We are so important I assure you. There is so much good in you that you hide but you are so worthy to get out of your shell. I’ll be here if you need someone along the way because you may be single but you’ll never be alone. 💓

    Typical day of Michelle.

    Usually when i wake up it isn’t really glamours.. I get woken up by Alison usually crying around 6 or 7… My body usually wakes up before her sometimes, which doesn’t really matter because she’s usually up moments later. I then give her a bottle and put on Arthur.. She loves the theme song, it truly is motivating.. I sing it to her every morning and she enjoys it so much that she starts to smile/laugh when she sees Arthur with pal walking down the street. The lyrics are so amazing and I just recently really listened to lyrics. As I sing to Alison I realize how amazing it is to have this song. Lyrics below:

    Everyday when you’re walking down the street, everybody that you meet has an original point of view. And I say HEY! hey! what a wonderful kind of day! Where you can learn to work and play…And get along with each other. You got to listen to your heart..Listen to the beat, listen to the rhythm, the rhythm of the street. Open up your eyes, open up your ears… get together and make things better by working together.

    Since singing this to Ali it has really helped me realize it is so important to open your heart and enjoy those who you love. Now I am planning my days and enjoying them. Knowing that I am produvice and deserve time to myself as well as chore time. Below I will post bullet tips or lists of what I have been doing during the day which i think could help you as it has helped me these past couple of weeks.

    • Wake up knowing that today will be good and you will do anything to make it that way.

    – This has been the most eye opening thing for me. I wake up to crying most of the time but the second I see Alison she smiles, laughs, and usually is SO happy to see me. Knowing this I wake up with the thought of her and that she will be happy to see me. You may not have a daughter or child for that matter. You may wake up alone and that is okay. Wake up knowing that someone is so happy to talk to you today.. Someone woke up today thinking of you and thinking of your wellbeing. Always wake up knowing you are so capable to enjoy the day.

    • Before you leave or start your day take a moment for yourself to relax.. If you wake up late make time for it.. Really you deserve it!

    – When I wake up with Alison i am lucky that she can feed herself her morning bottle. I put her in the chair or playpen with her bottle and she happily plays to arthur on the TV or plays quietly with herself. During this time I take my time for myself… To wake up and plan my day. I have started to have tea first thing in morning. It tastes delicious and is so warm and calming for me. As I enjoy my tea I also enjoy Arthur and start writing a list of what I want to do for the day. Whether it be chores such as laundry or dishes, making important calls, to something fun like a walk to the park or a shopping trip. I write down EVERYTHING i want to do and check off what I have done as the day goes on. At the end of the day I will usually check my list and see what I have done. I feel productive even if I didn’t finish everything, because that is okay.. There is always tomorrow and more time to finish chores. I always put myself and Alison first. You deserve that as well..

    • After this point it may be different for me as it would be for you. As a stay at home mom I start to play with Alison now. Feeding her breakfast and then getting her dressed to go out to either the mall, the park, or the store. I always try to plan a walk in my day.. Even if it is raining out. I use to think rain would stop me from doing things.. EW water you know? WRONG. You can go outside in the rain and go out and STILL enjoy the day. When the sun isn’t shining BE the sun for the day. Go out anyway and brighten someone’s day. Even if it is your own that is even better. I have realized that going out I enjoy seeing people, smiling at them, and talking with them. People will actually respond if you notice them and it’s such a wonderful feeling.

    The main thing to enjoy your day is to honestly wake up and take care of yourself in the morning. Stretch, breathe, EAT a healthy meal, drink tea. Taking this time for yourself will shape the day and give you the energy and motivation to tackle your day whenter stressful or a fun day..

    Wake up every morning with this mind:

    1. Look in the mirror and really look at yourself. Find something you think is a flaw and make it something you love. Look at yourself knowing you are beautiful and unique. There is only ONE of you and you are special.
    2. Fuel your body with things that you would feed your baby child. If it isn’t healthy rethink your choice and save it for another time. Your body needs good food and water to tackle the daily stresses in life… Doing this in the morning will help create a routine that you will see you deserve.
    3. Smile at people you see during your travels. You never ever know someone else’s battles. Somebody could be having the worst day and that smile could safe their life and give them that boost they need. It will always give you a boost. I promise you that..

    Well guys, I hope this helps you… Taking time for yourself is so important. I hope you know that…

    Love yours,

    Michelle Xox.

    Most of all I am ME.

    Hello there, I am Michelle Brianne and I always knew deep down there was a purpose for my being here. Along the way doubts, fears and negativity has stopped me from wanting what I desire. I always thought I wouldn’t amount to nothing and I saw all these people living and enjoying life when I was isolated, alone, and forgotten. The thing is I was never alone and I was never forgotten. I am so loved and I finally found that out!

    Self love is probably one of the most important things we can feel. We feel love for so many things in this world. Things we see and things we can’t see or people who we haven’t even met.. We often forget about ourselves and how important we are. We are SO important.. When we focus on ourselves and give ourselves daily needs everything else just falls into place. I promise you that.. For more than half of my life I have battled with depression and anxiety but I am DONE battling. I am ready to take on these feelings and tell them that they aren’t true. I am beautiful, amazing, and worthy of love of myself and of others. I am so excited to share my journey with you and hopefully my experiences will help you in someway…

    Love yours, 

    Michelle Xox.