It’s easy to put blame onto others when we feel a certain way or wish things were different. It almost makes us feel better about the situation and leaves us feeling clean or as if it wasn’t our doing. I’ve realized it isn’t good to blame anyone. Even ourselves honestly.. we allow what we think we deserve and that can change in any instant.
Anything can change and everything does. Weather, time, feelings. I’ve always loved the saying. “feelings change, memories dont.” Its a nice way to look at things as memories are there but you can always change how you feel.Change isn’t easy and it takes a lot of time. Sometimes you want others to change but you can’t ever change someone. They must find that within themselves. And if they can’t you gotta ask yourself can you live with this or move on? Either way, there’s no one at fault really. We both have our different views, morals, and opinions and that’s okay. Life will somehow find a way.
I’ve learned recently that I deserve so much love and respect. I can stand up for myself and what I know I deserve and I don’t deserve shit. I remember the first time I stood up for myself was in highschool against my bullies. It was so difficult and I’m so thankful I had that strength. Recently I regained that as well and I’m so glad that I did it. I have stood up for myself to both of the men I love and want in my life. It could have ended terribly but I know that it is worth saying. I am worth the respect and I won’t settle for less.