These are my friends, I love them.. I LOVE them!

It is recommended, but not mandatory that you listen to “These are my friends” by lovelytheband while you read this. Song found here: x

An important part of recovery and self love is surrounding yourself with friends who pick you up and bring out the best in you. When you are hurting it’s easy to feel that you are alone. I felt like a burden to my friends so many times and I never wanted to trouble them with my issues. I thought they were better off without me or that they would just forget about me. I was so wrong. Even if you haven’t spoken to someone in months or years I can reassure you that your true friends are there for you.

I’m so thankful for my friends. The new ones and the ones who have been my side since I was in elementary or high school. Finding a friendship is a rare beautiful thing and it’s so important to hold onto the memories with your best friends. Grudges should be a thing of the past, because when you open your heart to someone magical things can happen. Each paragraph below indicates a different bestie I am referring to. I’m not naming names, I think it’ll be fun for my friends to figure that out themselves…

Dear Best Friends:

⁃ You’re such a ray of light. You have so much strength, courage and drive. I look up to you so much. You handle stress and challenges with such ease. You literally make adulting look easy which is unreal. I don’t know how you do it most days. I’m so blessed to know you. To have known you throughout high school and have you still a constant in my life. I couldn’t picture my life without your positivity and smile. I’m so excited to see where your life takes you. Keep growing && being you. I’m proud of you always.

⁃ I think of you most days, sometimes more than once. I wish I could transport over to you and give you a hug if you needed it. You have so much love and strength in you. I’m so proud of you all the time. I hope you know all that. You make being a mom look so easy and elegant. I cherish every moment I have with you and the moments we can get our girls together. Seeing the friendship they’re forming warms my heart and I can’t wait for the friendship to grow with Levi. I love you so so much and I feel that our hearts are connected as one as mothers. I love that and I’ll be missing you until I see you again.

⁃ I wish you knew how beautiful you are and how much I love your spirit. You’re such a ray of sunshine and I see so much of myself in you. I wouldn’t have met you if I didn’t hurt last year. If I didn’t move back home. You came into my life at a time I needed it. I remember hating all the pain I felt last year and wishing it didn’t happen.. But if it didn’t, I wouldn’t have met you so I’m glad it all happened.. I love you so much, don’t ever let someone else’s doubt of you bring you down. You are so worthy of love and respect. I hope you realize that one day and know that you can get to where you want to go. I’m here for you always and I love you more than you know.

⁃ You aren’t a best friend, you’re next level. You’re the sister I never had. The sibling I always wanted. We fight, we argue. We’ve been through hell and back and we’re still stronger than ever. I can’t even begin to say how thankful I am to have you in my life. You have such a special spot in my heart. I’ve known you longer than I’ve know anyone and I wouldn’t change a thing. You’re so wise and admire your strength, beauty, and greatness in the control you take in your life. I hope you know how happy you make me by just even being my friend.

⁃ I still remember that day you showed up in the hospital with flowers and a beautiful card. I felt whole again in that moment. I missed you more than I can even put into words. I’m so thankful for your mom and your family. I feel like that love and bond always kept us close and together.. The weekend I spent with you was one of the best of my life. It was so special being with you, connecting with you and making more memories with you. It’s amazing how much we’ve grown up and you’re still apart of my life. I wouldn’t image it any other way. I love your family, your mom, your grandma, your lil rem & kovu && I freaking LOVE you. Can’t wait for our next adventure.

⁃ Sometimes I think I’m dreaming that you are still apart of my life all this time. High school was crazy. We were best friends but we also never really knew what we were struggling with. I think we were both scared to open up. I’m so glad our littles brought us back to each other. In a way I never thought possible. I admire you as mother. You’re freaking strong, bad ass, and you take control of what you want in your life. I’m so glad you have allowed me to be apart of your life. I’m here for you always girl and I miss you.

⁃ It breaks my heart how much I miss you. It’s been three to four months since I’ve seen you last and I truly hope you are doing well and happy. I miss the times we spent together. The memories we shared laying in my backyard last summer. Endless pizza. Endless laughs. Endless careless nights. I want those moments back. Some day I think we’ll get there. I hope we do. I hope you truly are happy, peaceful, relaxed, joyful. I want the best for you. You were there for me in moments I couldn’t be there for myself. For that I’ll always be grateful and love you. I was just hurt. I need you, I miss you and I’m sorry.

-I’m so glad that our relationships brought us together. We’re so similar and have so many things in common. You give the best hugs EVER and I love ever moment I spend with you. You’re so goofy, beautiful and random I love it all. Whenever I vent to you or rant on about things you always put it into perspective and somehow make it understandable. I appreciate that so much and I picture so many memories with you this summer, taking adventures and double dates. Can’t wait for more moments with you! 

Just last year, I thought I was alone. I thought I didn’t have any friends and the ones I did were over because of me. I was so wrong. When I opened myself up and spoke my truth my true friends were there for me. My friends picked me up. They made me see beauty and joy in life that I wouldn’t have seen without them. I’m so blessed and happy to have them all. To my best friends, I love you. I’m here for you, Always. Thank you, for saving me.

Love yours,

Michelle

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