Surprise yourself –

 

Lately I’ve been having out of body experiences.. I use to have these feelings, but it was always negative.. Now as days go by I find that I’m surprising myself. I am doing more and enjoying it without the worry or stress. A couple weeks ago I went to a ‘stay and play’ at a local rec centre with my daughter. It’s been something I’ve been wanting to do for months but I couldn’t find the courage or the resources. The first time I went I felt excited and eager, but one familiar feeling was missing… my anxiety. I found it weird that it wasn’t there and I ended up trying to search for it. On the walk there, when I had to socialize, etc etc but it never came. Looking back I wanted a reason as to why I wasn’t feeling anxious. I realized that the want to do something for my daughter was greater than my anxiety. It overpowered it. The happiness and excitement my daughter felt… the fearlessness she had meeting a group of strangers… the laughter and joy she gave to others really made all the difference. I didn’t need to feel anxious. 

There are still those days that I feel anxious, but I don’t let it control me anymore. I approach the feeling of anxiety differently. I awknowledge it’s there, feel it, and move on. It’s easier said than done and it doesn’t always turn out that way but i’ve found that it’s easier to deal with my anxiety when I treat it like any other emotion. I don’t give it the power it use to have over me.. It’s SO important to know that you’re worthy of all the possibilities today has to offer. Your anxiety doesn’t have to make you feel stuck or isolated. There are so many things that you are capable and worthy of ❤ know and embrace that.

Love yours,

Michelle xo

Clean 

Whenever I’m feeling doubt in myself or my journey I always turn to Taylor’s clean speeches. Every single one is a bit different, but they all have the same concept or meaning. To not look at yourself as damaged, to look in the mirror and not just see your mistakes. I was lucky enough to hear one and I always love going back to that place. To feeling happiness, hope, joy, and the reminder that I am not my failures or mistakes. That I’m not going to let my fears or doubts control me. It’s a daily struggle to not listen to your inner voice that screams negativity or failures from your past, but what I’ve learned is to not dwell on the past. To not be as hard on yourself, to be in the moment and to feel it. Hold onto the joy and happiness you feel because it doesn’t last forever. Every moment or experience will bring different feelings. Mistakes will happen, but you’ll learn from those. Holding onto to the good, the positive, the achievements in your life, that is what will keep you going. Not looking at what you are not. I’m so thankful for the moments of happiness in my life. There are many and even though things may be difficult right now, it won’t be forever.

Love yours, 

Michelle Xox 

You know.

Throughout life we are always navigating through different obstacles. Some we may know of while others are completely out of the blue. It’s important to have others around us in life. It’s important to let others into your life. I’m so thankful for the people in my life who I know have my back. Who I know I can trust or talk to for advice. We should all have someone we are comfortable to talk about our lives with. This person could be anyone, but really is should first be you.

Lately I’ve been saying it’s important to let others in. Although this can’t fully happen unless you let yourself into your life. If you truly take time to listen to your inner self you’ll be more sure. We always wonder if we are doing things right. We ask for second opinions. We seek advice. Sometimes from a complete stranger. Although I feel we should be connected with ourselves enough that we know what is the best option. I talk to myself quite often and it’s good to have ‘pep’ talks with yourself. In the end you are in control of your life. You may not know it, but you do have control. You do know what is best for you because you know you. Seeking advice is important. I love seeing different sides, although I feel you must first be in touch with yourself. That way you can be sure with what you need or deserve. 

Being aware of your worth let’s you have control of your life or your feelings. When you know you are worthy of something you don’t hold back. You take risks even if you fail. You try even though you may fall. You listen better. Listen to what your mind and heart is needing. Listen to others and most importantly yourself. Next time you are feeling down talk to your inner self. You are stronger than you believe. You know more than you think. You have so much compassion for others and I assure you that you can give that to yourself as well. 

I’ve been taking a bit of a break from social media lately. It’s really nice to just go out and not worry about the online world. More posts will be coming this week though ❤ I’m inspired.

Love yours, 

Michelle Xox. 

Everything changes, even you.

Just like sadness, happiness is an emotion. Feelings change all the time. You aren’t constantly happy at all moments. You are human and you can feel things. Changes happen throughout the day that you don’t prepare for and that is okay. You are alive and you can handle it. I’ve found that the best thing to do is to just feel emotions as they come. Which ever emotion that is. You can’t ever stop sadness, hurt, or worry. Unfortunately those things will happen in life. It’s your choice how to handle these moments. It’s okay to hurt and it’s also okay to move on and feel happiness. Whenever I feel joy I embrace those moments and don’t let go. I remind myself I deserve to feel those moments. Lately, those moments are coming more frequently because I am letting them in. I’m not hiding anymore or dwelling in the should ofs or what ifs. I will admit it’s a hard journey and some days are more productive than others. That’s okay though. I know that my goals, my ideas, my plans will amount to something.

Taylor reminds me everyday that: “Here’s what you’re not. You are not the opinion of somebody who doesn’t know you. Another thing you’re not. You are not damaged goods if you have made mistakes in your life. One more thing, you are not going nowhere just because you haven’t gotten to your final destination yet.” My life has so much ahead of it and I know that for a fact. I am shaping it right now with things I know and learning. Every step that I take will lead me to better things. I trust in that because things are always changing. I know what is best for my future and my life because I know who I am. I know what I deserve and need in life. I will probably make more mistakes as life goes on because I need to. I will face stressful moments or loss or worry. And I will feel all the emotions. Every single one. Because I am lucky to be alive. Lucky to be able to feel emotions and let go ❤

It’s so important to know that our emotions and feelings are changing constantly. Embrace each moment as they come. Stop thinking of the past or worrying about the future. Live for now. Take in the moment for all it is.

Love yours,

Michelle Xox. 

Do something that scares you.

Facing your fears is easier said then done. It’s hard to push yourself out of your comfort zone because we like comfort. We stay in our own bubble because we feel safe there. There’s nothing really wrong with that. It’s good to be comfortable and feel safe, but what we often forget is that we can be comfortable in places we have never been. We can find safety in things that scare us. New experiences can be exciting and you won’t know until you try something.

Today I joined a gym. Something I have wanted to do for a while now. I was scared of the judgement and making time for going. I’ve realized that it doessn’t matter about the other people there. They have their own goals as do I. I will focus on myself and the reason why I want to be there. As for time ther are many hours in a day. If I want to make time for something, I can. I am so excited to go to a gym again. It’s been years! I use to go to good life fitness and it was a great gym. I don’t know much about fitness or working out to be honest. But i am excited to learn and take care of myself. 

There’s always something that we desire or want to do. Our inner doubt usually takes over, but it doesn’t have to. Write your passions or your goals.. Then decide which ones you want to take action on. Which one scares you the most? You could try that one! For this week do what it takes to accomplish this. Even if it is taking time for yourself, going out for dinner, or a movie. You could start with something small and work towards something bigger. You are worth the long term goals that you have. You don’t have to wait forever.  You can take time now to change ❤

Love yours,

Michelle Xox

Holding a grudge, is it worth it?

I use to always be someone who would hold a grudge against someone. Years would go by but i would still be angry or upset about a person or situation. I felt this mostly towards my bullies. I had too many to count and the hardest part throughout my journey was letting go of my hatred towards them. I don’t usually forget things and that can become a problem… I’ve realized that is so damaging, time consuming, and lonely to constantly be angry towards someone. Life is too short to be angry and feel emotions that don’t make you feel good. It has taken me years to move on from what I experienced in high school. It was hard for me to even realize that it was still bothering me.

It’s really important to embrace the feelings, accept that things happen, and move on. I can’t be stuck in my old self and I won’t.. Neither do you. No matter what has happened to you or how you were treated you don’t have be stuck in that place. Likely, those people don’t feel the same way because feelings change and honestly their opinion of you doesn’t matter. What matters is how you feel about yourself. Make yourself proud.

Learning to let go of things you can’t control really helps you let go of grudges. You can’t control how someone else acts but you can control how you act and react to situations. Showing love, compassion, and acceptance lets you embrace someone else and really see their view. Sometimes things won’t work out, but that’s okay. You don’t need to feel resentment towards someone for who they are. It’s their choice. Your choice is to either embrace them or move on. You can’t move on when you constantly feel grudges towards others. Let things go that you can’t control and you will feel completely free to be who are or want to be.

Take a moment today for yourself, you really deserve to take a look into your life.

Love yours,

Michelle Xox

Be kind to one another. 

I love Ellen.. LOVE HER. Everyday I watch her show and it gets me smiling, laughing, and dancing.. The world needs more of Ellen. She is extremely positive and always sees the good in people. Plus SHES DORY, HELLO!?  Haha, anyway.. Whenever she wraps her show she says “Be kind to one another.” It’s so simple, yet so true because we need more kindness. More kindness to one an another and most importantly ourself. Being kind is such an easy thing to do. Even just a smile could change someone’s life.  As Taylor Swift once said: “Being kind together is a great legacy to leave behind.” And it truly is. If you leave kindness where ever you go it will be noticed. I assure you.. It feels really good to brighten someone else’s day including yours…

Even if you have a bad day, try to be kind. It may even help you create a wonderful day..

Love yours,

Michelle Xox.