Whenever I’m feeling doubt in myself or my journey I always turn to Taylor’s clean speeches. Every single one is a bit different, but they all have the same concept or meaning. To not look at yourself as damaged, to look in the mirror and not just see your mistakes. I was lucky enough to hear one and I always love going back to that place. To feeling happiness, hope, joy, and the reminder that I am not my failures or mistakes. That I’m not going to let my fears or doubts control me. It’s a daily struggle to not listen to your inner voice that screams negativity or failures from your past, but what I’ve learned is to not dwell on the past. To not be as hard on yourself, to be in the moment and to feel it. Hold onto the joy and happiness you feel because it doesn’t last forever. Every moment or experience will bring different feelings. Mistakes will happen, but you’ll learn from those. Holding onto to the good, the positive, the achievements in your life, that is what will keep you going. Not looking at what you are not. I’m so thankful for the moments of happiness in my life. There are many and even though things may be difficult right now, it won’t be forever.

Love yours, 

Michelle Xox 

Remember the magic of Christmas. 

With Christmas coming up I’ve realized how much we are so revolved around material items. The latest gadget, newest tv, ect ect. We consume so much through the year and at the end of the year we consume insane amounts. For me, there’s always a magic about Christmas, and that was never in the things I got or even the meal I was enjoying. It was in the company around me and all the people I could share it with. When people ask me what I want for Christmas it’s hard to think of something that I really need. I am truly blessed with all I would ever need in life. All that I truly want this Christmas and every Christmas is to spend it with my friends and family. To make memories and share special moments with the ones I love. The holidays and Christmas this year will be extremely different. As much as I am grateful and thankful that I can spend my first Christmas with my daughter, it’s difficult when other aspects in your life are more difficult than the magic of Christmas. When someone will be missing from usual Christmas routine.. you realize that things can change at any moment. It doesn’t matter what time of year it is, life alway hits you harder than you could have ever imagined.

Whatever happens this Christmas or following after. I am so thankful for the moments and the memories I have made. That’s really all I remember from past Christmas’ and that is what is most important to me. 

Enjoy your holidays ❤

Love yours,

Michelle Xox

Expect the unexpected. 

You never really know where your life is going to take you. As much as you want to have control sometimes you really can’t control your life. The hardest thing is facing the unexpected. The moments you never thought would happen, at least not now.. Taking each moment and going with the flow in life is easier said than done. Lately I’ve been trying to plan many things out in my life. Things I want to do, people I’ll see ect.. but the unexpected always happens. Things are always changing and nothing ever stays the same. As much as you plan or want something it doesn’t always work out.

I haven’t posted lately and I wish I have. Sometimes I have no inspiration or feel I have worthy advice to give. All I know is that every journey is a difficult one. We are all on the path of life which takes us on a crazy ride. I’m so thankful for the support I have, for the love I have for myself, and the trust I have in my life and my journey. Life, or adulting as we say, is friggin difficult. You never really know what’s going to come next. Enjoying your life for now is all we can really do.

Love yours, 

Michelle Xox 

I will fight.

I usually don’t post about politics, however this goes far beyond that. This is more than a political decision. This is a environmental destruction. That I will not watch happen without trying to take action. I hope my voice will be heard, along with many environmentalist in this province or around the world. The only way to stop this from happening is taking action and speaking up. Lets stand together ❤

Last year I voted for someone who I thought I could trust with environmental concerns. Someone who I thought would fight against pipeline expansions and think deeply about the environmental concerns that go along with them. I feel extremely hurt, betrayed, and disappointed. Although it doesn’t really matter how I feel, because I won’t be directly effected. Those effected will be the first nations who have been fighting for their rights. The countless marine animals and wildlife who will be harmed when an oil spill occurs. It’s truly heartbreaking because they have no voice or say in this. We have to be their voices and we have to be heard.

It really bothers me how decisions about my coast can be made miles away. That the people here somehow have no say. It’s extremely disrespectful how we have to find out the same time everyone else does. That the decisions made are somehow ‘set in stone’ and we don’t have control of it. I have hope that our voices will be heard and the expansions won’t be built. That’s all I can hope for. I don’t believe our prime minister. I don’t trust him and I now believe that he doesn’t have environmental concerns at heart. 

I wish that humans would realize that we don’t run the show. We don’t run the world. They are far greater things on this earth than our needs. We have the knowledge, the technology, and the science to know what is right and how to help situations. Creating a twin pipeline isn’t progress for me. It’s depleting the natural resource and throughout history that has been made to be ‘okay’. I believe it is NOT. It’s upsetting how political leaders only believe that the way to create jobs is with trades, construction, developing. You don’t have to create, build, or develop more of something to create more jobs. The environment is at risk everyday. We as a nation pollute everyday. Creating more risky ways to damage the environment is a huge step back. 

My coast is more important to me than middle class jobs. The marine animals, especially the southern resident orcas, are more important than the ‘new found hope’ we will somehow gain from this. Canada claims to making efforts in reducing our environmental impact. Lowing greenhouse gases and taking a step against climate change. With the approval of the Kinder Morgan pipeline and line 3 pipeline this isn’t the case. This is a huge step back and we aren’t going to be meeting our environmental goals nationally anytime soon.

I will always stand by my coast and stand by my province. The environment is so much more important than people realize, but yet we continue to degrade it. It’s more important than jobs created for Canadians who probably don’t appreciate the rich amount of nature we do have her. Our province, our country is magical and thriving with life. Life greater than our own needs. Once political leaders realize that this earth is more important than what we do here, maybe more action will be taken to protect our environment instead of destroying it. 

Take action today.. Your voice will be heard. We need to make change and make political leaders realize that we can’t claim to care about the environment if we approach risky pipelines that will damage our environment. Be the change!

Love yours, in this case, love your planet.

Michelle Xox

Being a mom is the best thing I am. 

Becoming a mom has been the best experience of my life. I could never picture my life without my daughter. She’s made me realize that everyday can bring you joy and happiness. I love being with her. I love being her mom. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

I have always had anxiety throughout my life. It’s always hard to talk about or understand. Before having Alison I always wondered if I would be a good mom or if I would do things ‘right.’ I’ve realized now there is no right way. You honestly have this motherly instinct come over you and all you want is what’s best for your baby. I was never really nervous to give birth… I was more nervous for the after part. Being a mom. Figuring things out. The first night with her I didn’t sleep at all. I held her in my arms. Fed her, watched her sleep, wondered how this little beautiful girl was growing inside me. It’s truly amazing what the woman body can do. I love my body so much for being able to support her. During those moments in the hospital I became more eager to get out and to just learn with her in becoming a mom. 

Before you go home with baby the nurses make you watch a video about infants, babies blues, basically something to prepare you for when you go home. After the video I was more nervous as I thought my baby would cry constantly and I would lose my mind. Come to find that worry was for nothing. I am truly blessed with the happiest baby I could have ever dreamed of. She smiles and laughs more than she cries. She is curious and friendly more than she is shy or scared. Ali has really made me realize many things in life. That you can take joy in the little things. You don’t need much to feel joy or happiness. You can learn and grow everyday. Being open to change, growing, and learning is how I get through everyday. She makes it so easy to get up in the morning. No matter how exhausted or tired I am. I am always so excited to see her. To learn next to her. To see her grow and grow along with her. Everyday I become a better mom, because she is an amazing daughter.

I truly never thought things would go by so fast. You hear “they grow up fast” constantly, but it is so true. Alison is almost one and that is just a crazy concept to me. It feels just like yesterday I was holding my little girl and all she did was sleep and eat. I miss those moments so much but now she’s crawling, talking, playing, eating solids.. It’s really surreal. With every moment I miss there is a new milestone that she reaches. You just take it all in and it’s such a beautiful moment. I am so lucky to have such a happy, healthy, beautiful, smart and strong baby. I’m so thankful for her and all she’s done in my life already. I’ll always enjoy being her mom. It’s best thing I am ❤

Everyday being a mom is the best thing I am. I am so lucky.

Love yours,

Michelle Xox.

You know.

Throughout life we are always navigating through different obstacles. Some we may know of while others are completely out of the blue. It’s important to have others around us in life. It’s important to let others into your life. I’m so thankful for the people in my life who I know have my back. Who I know I can trust or talk to for advice. We should all have someone we are comfortable to talk about our lives with. This person could be anyone, but really is should first be you.

Lately I’ve been saying it’s important to let others in. Although this can’t fully happen unless you let yourself into your life. If you truly take time to listen to your inner self you’ll be more sure. We always wonder if we are doing things right. We ask for second opinions. We seek advice. Sometimes from a complete stranger. Although I feel we should be connected with ourselves enough that we know what is the best option. I talk to myself quite often and it’s good to have ‘pep’ talks with yourself. In the end you are in control of your life. You may not know it, but you do have control. You do know what is best for you because you know you. Seeking advice is important. I love seeing different sides, although I feel you must first be in touch with yourself. That way you can be sure with what you need or deserve. 

Being aware of your worth let’s you have control of your life or your feelings. When you know you are worthy of something you don’t hold back. You take risks even if you fail. You try even though you may fall. You listen better. Listen to what your mind and heart is needing. Listen to others and most importantly yourself. Next time you are feeling down talk to your inner self. You are stronger than you believe. You know more than you think. You have so much compassion for others and I assure you that you can give that to yourself as well. 

I’ve been taking a bit of a break from social media lately. It’s really nice to just go out and not worry about the online world. More posts will be coming this week though ❤ I’m inspired.

Love yours, 

Michelle Xox. 

Everything changes, even you.

Just like sadness, happiness is an emotion. Feelings change all the time. You aren’t constantly happy at all moments. You are human and you can feel things. Changes happen throughout the day that you don’t prepare for and that is okay. You are alive and you can handle it. I’ve found that the best thing to do is to just feel emotions as they come. Which ever emotion that is. You can’t ever stop sadness, hurt, or worry. Unfortunately those things will happen in life. It’s your choice how to handle these moments. It’s okay to hurt and it’s also okay to move on and feel happiness. Whenever I feel joy I embrace those moments and don’t let go. I remind myself I deserve to feel those moments. Lately, those moments are coming more frequently because I am letting them in. I’m not hiding anymore or dwelling in the should ofs or what ifs. I will admit it’s a hard journey and some days are more productive than others. That’s okay though. I know that my goals, my ideas, my plans will amount to something.

Taylor reminds me everyday that: “Here’s what you’re not. You are not the opinion of somebody who doesn’t know you. Another thing you’re not. You are not damaged goods if you have made mistakes in your life. One more thing, you are not going nowhere just because you haven’t gotten to your final destination yet.” My life has so much ahead of it and I know that for a fact. I am shaping it right now with things I know and learning. Every step that I take will lead me to better things. I trust in that because things are always changing. I know what is best for my future and my life because I know who I am. I know what I deserve and need in life. I will probably make more mistakes as life goes on because I need to. I will face stressful moments or loss or worry. And I will feel all the emotions. Every single one. Because I am lucky to be alive. Lucky to be able to feel emotions and let go ❤

It’s so important to know that our emotions and feelings are changing constantly. Embrace each moment as they come. Stop thinking of the past or worrying about the future. Live for now. Take in the moment for all it is.

Love yours,

Michelle Xox.